Over ten years ago I got a tattoo on my ankle dramatically stating "Trust Self". I remember the day I impulsively marched up to that tattoo parlour. I had been lied to, I was devastated and broken hearted. Worse than the broken heart...I felt like I had deceived myself. How could I ever trust myself again? I was mad at myself for letting this happen, was I blind or stupid? I had all the warning signs, my intuition was desperately trying to get my attention. My gut was telling me the truth, but it wasn't the truth that I wanted to hear. So I ignored it.
I got the tattoo to remind myself to never ever distrust myself again. TRUST SELF...don't forget. I would like to say I learned my lesson and lived happily ever after in a self assured castle. The End. Somehow it didn't work that way. As the sting of my past relationship faded away so did my passion for trusting myself. People would ask about my tattoo and I would brush it off and say: "oh just something I did on a whim." I am not saying I should have aired all my stories and dirty laundry to anyone who asked, I am saying I actually forgot why I got the tattoo.
Lets be honest, I am no wilted flower. I can speak my mind and I am specific about what I want and need (just ask my husband). I also find it painful to be fake, that is why ignoring my inner guide is excruciating, it actually hurts: my body, my brain, my soul. So why do I do it? Because following your heart is not always the easy path, especially not at first. You may need to disrupt your comfort zone and then...disrupt it again. Although it is cozy and safe in the comfort zone sometimes something deep within tells you, you want more.
Following your intuition is like so many things, a muscle you need to train. It gets stronger and stronger the more you trust and test it. The scary part is, it doesn't always lead you to easy places. It doesn't always tell you to take the easy way. My intuition challenges me to be bold, to serve others and to have blind faith in myself. Anytime I am faced with a challenging decision I remind myself of a few things (listed below). Some days it works like magic and other times decisions are far more challenging, but I am committed to strengthening that intuition muscle one day at a time.
Below are 3 things to keep in mind when learning to "Trust Self" as my tattoo once told me:
1-Stop Second guessing yourself.
As I mentioned above it can get uncomfortable when we change our current state of being or leave our comfort zone, but sometimes we have to in order to follow our heart and intuition. This is where blind faith and trust of yourself comes in. Trust that you will figure it out regardless of the outcome. Regardless of what becomes of your decision, have faith the you will be OK. Every decision you make on your journey of self trust will lead you where you are meant to go.
2- Be OK with being scared.
This trips me up! Being scared can feel like a sign to stop. It can make you second guess all your decisions and gut feelings. This is when we need to ask ourselves: What is more scary: making a mistake or never trying? Truly there are no mistakes because each misstep or roadblock serves a deeper purpose and is a part of your story (and who doesn't want a really juicy story).
3-Envision Your own future with passion and excitement.
No one else can do that for you. Have you ever been so excited to jump on board with someone else's dream? You can feel their excitement, its contagious. You want in! But for some reason, you can't maintain the same level of YAY! That's because it's not your goal, it's not your passion or idea. Sometimes our goals align with those of others and sometimes they don't. Don't be afraid to be you and create your own reality. Be brave and go after what YOU want. Turn down the chatter from others and turn up your INTUITION.
Thank you for listening to my story, I have faith in you xo Anna.
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